maybe we should stop this because I hate feeling this way
Class picture earlier with 5ar2 :) #doodlesandphotos #ust #archofthecenturies
The SWOT Analysis
In our planning subject, I was called to define and put into words what my strengths are. I wasn’t given enough time to reflect on it when I know my weakness was currently overtaking me- I don’t like talking in front of many people and being asked by questions that require my opinion. I don’t like to be the center of attention or just when i see that all eyes are on me. If you know me so well you know that I’m a very awkward person when it comes to small talks with people I’m not familiar with. However, I am not always like what just mentioned but I’m bubbly and friendly when it comes to my close friends.
I never recite, I do not burst out my opinion when it’s not necessary. Since 4th grade my teachers commented on me being not p-participating during class discussions. The reason behind that is that I hate being called for recitations. So I really seldom raise my hand, even until now, I am still locked up on that stage. But I make sure though, that I know the answer to what is being asked.
I panic. I am pretty sensitive. I never want to be humiliated in front of everybody especially when my “mistake” and “failure” is being talked about. Well, basically, no one wants that. I am fine with one on one talks just don’t make me speak in front of the large crowd. I am more comfortable talking to those people who talk a lot. Not that I have nothing to contribute, I just don’t have the guts to share it. Honestly, in my opinion, I don’t see myself as a boring person. I’m an observant, I’m a listener. I believe I can read the person I’m talking to based on their gestures, therefore I can sense if someone really wants to talk to me so what I’s do is to try to keep conversation going.
In reality, the hardest part of all of these is to make a good first impression to keep people interested to chew the fat with you or more. - WHICH IS REALLY NOT MY THING
Maybe I’m just scared that nobody would value my opinion and the fear of being rejected is what I think I cannot handle. My sad reality.
For now, I’ll just try to prove myself that I am more than all of these.
I did look so stupid. My charm didn’t work for the first time.
Young & Beautiful: Playlist
- Midnight City — M83 (from Warm Bodies OST)
- Amsterdam — Imagine Dragons
- Safe and Sound — Capital Cities
- Naive (Jean Tonique Remix) — The Kooks
- F For You (Bear Remix) — Disclosure
- Lights (Diederik Edit) — Ellie Goulding
- Perfect Form — Cyril Hahn ft. Shy Girls
- Young and Beautiful (Kulkid Remix) — Lana Del Rey
- Latch - Disclosure ft. Sam Smith
- A Real Hero vs. Under Your Spell (Desire and College Remix) — Graxious
I was listening via 8Tracks earlier, and got inspired to make my own playlist. This is something my boyfriend and I (or just me, haha) would listen to while driving around the traffic-free city or just chilling at the pool side at night, drinking, lights flickering in orange hues, holding hands, enjoying our youth and savoring the moment.
I hope you’ll like it! :)