I was bored
Fitspiration. Haha I hope to look like this woman while doing my bunch of plates. Plates, drawing not plate of food ok
she’s prettier than barbie
I am lucky to have my Big boy though I’m doubtful about it now and then. I feel that everyone is trying to get him from me. Possessive as it may seem but I am kind of scared to lose anything that I think belongs to me. I am aware that I do not own him, but I know that he’s into me and I have no idea if that’s enough. He is everyone’s bestfriend and I like that a lot of people loves him. But I am just too scared that anyone can have him that he would share more intimate relationships with other people, most especially with his girl friends. I do not restrict him from talking and communicating with them, cos I cannot do that of course. I am just intimidated with them being too close to him, like some day he would feel they trust him more than I do, that he would just appreciate them more than he appreciates me for trusting him.
Whenever I feel insecure, I tend to pull myself away, escape from nightmare that has been chasing me… nightmare which, sadly, belongs in the reality. I tend to pass all my woe to the people involved. I tend to hurt people emotionally. And when this happens, it would require long-time rehab. There are the days of silent treatment, nights of emotional distance.
I tend to take YOU for granted, I know you feel it. I know I’m being selfish for not telling you whatever is wrong… especially when I know that it’s me. Sorry.
Life has already taken a lot from me, I was helpless. I can’t bear to lose anything that is important to me.
Let’s figure out how this will work.
Why do I always feel that it’s always not enough.